It's awful, I know. No, I shan't backslide, so don't worry.

But there are days when, for no good reason whatsoever, I get a serious craving jab for sending some nicotine through my system. Something I haven't done in æons, lest you worry.

But I never entirely got over it.

That is all.

-J.

Comments

Jaye Joseph said…
I totally know that feeling. I've been having dreams about it the past couple of nights as well.
BabelBabe said…
me too. altho if i WERE to indulge, it would make me ill.
Badger said…
There are days when I would KILL for a pack of menthols, and I haven't touched the stuff in 15+ years (and even then I was a social/stress smoker, not a habitual smoker).
I haven't smoked for 6 years. I am glad not to. I know though that if I had one it would make me vomit, two and I would be addicted again!

I loved smoking!!
BreadBox said…
Stay strong, Joke, stay strong. I'm trying to learn to enjoy the cravings, still there more than 2000 days later....

N.
Joke said…
Fortunately, I was slapped with a stack of errands and the mood slipped, biding its time, I'm sure.

-J.
Stomper Girl said…
I know e-ZACK-ly how you feel. And since my best friend is a filthy smoker, backsliding can and does happen.
olivespearls said…
I sympathize. It's been 14 years since I touched one, but the memory lingers. For me, getting even the faintest whiff of second-hand smoke kills all cravings.
I had one today, and I might have one tomorrow. I smoke Djarum Indonesian tobacco. Have considered quitting, especially since I should probably start thinking about having a kid in the next couple years...but these people with their 14 year cessations; well they amaze me quite frankly. I have absolutely NO will power.
Joke said…
My appalling lack of willpower is helped by capacity for distraction.

"What I'd love right now is a smoke, yeah that's the...ooh...shiny!"

Sorta like that.

-J.
MsCellania said…
I quit November, 1986, letting go of my beloved Balkan Sobranies.
I hate that I still miss the habit.
Once in a blue moon I'll have a cigar and pay for it with a nasty cough for days.
meggie said…
I is an insidious drug, nicotine. It is 20 years since I quit, & normally I am in horror to think about it, but just occasionally...I wonder...
I was a full on addict though, so know I could never risk so much as one puff.
MsCellania said…
I think the end of meal smoke was a favorite. I still jump up after end of every meal and start scrubbing something to take my mind off smoking.
And it doesn't matter whose home we're at; you will find me at the kitchen sink at the end of a meal.
Dude I only smoked when I was away at uni, after dark and when I was particularly drunk and even now there are days I hunger for a drag.
shula said…
People actually manage to stop?

I am mystified.

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